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A life perspective from a "ROJAK" blood (Mixed Blood)

Joy

Joy. 

I wanted to watch it for a long time so when I finally had the time to through my “Movie List”, I’m glad I didn’t forget about this particular movie. 

I love Jennifer Lawrence’s performance as Joy Mangano; the intensity of coping with everyday life and the constant letdown, misbelieve and doubt when she comes up with innovative ideas by her own family members. 

There are a few things I got from watching the movie. 

  1. Even when she’s divorced from her husband, he still trusts in her and helped her achieve her mogul status. When her half-sister and dad sold her out, he stood by her and supported her all the way. 
  2. Hypocrisy takes place in own family. In fact,  anywhere and everywhere. People often supports and be nice to you (in your face) when you have something good or when you’re in a good place. Once you turn your back, you’ll never know about the bad-mouthing and conniving schemes they’ve come up to betray you. *Deep* You got to settle things on your own if you want to get things done. 

Speaking of hypocrites…

I believe, there are hypocrites everywhere even those who smiles and acts nice in front of you. I’ve been in situations where that person treats me good upfront but talked badly about me behind my back to others. Well, you know what they say, “What goes around, comes around.”

One case in particular that happened many years ago during my uni days. It’s the perfect showcase of a typical hypocrite. I was a Christian Club President but with a social life. Although I never liked going to clubs, I enjoy hanging out and spending time with my friends; drinking and talking, having a good time. I was not a rigid or strict club president, it’s more to making the members feeling comfortable with each other and spending time with family. 

Due to the fact that after gatherings, I would be out for drinks with a few other club members; I was labeled as a bad-influenced leader. Always bringing the members drinking, exposing them to bad things in life. This coming from a fellow church member! When I heard that, I was fuming because ONE, who does that person think he/she is to criticise me and TWO, that person should see me straight to address the issue instead of talking shit about me to my own friends. 

I never forced anyone to go out drinking with me and those who were always with me were the same people. When we hangout, we don’t drink till we’re drunk because we know our own limits for alcohol intake. 

And the funny thing was, I just saw a picture in which that person was in for a party and they were having drinks on the table. So, explain that! 

Seriously, the saying “Don’t judge a book by its cover” is so true. Don’t judge me if you’ve never had a proper conversation with me. Don’t act “I’m-holier-than-thou” to others. 

Okay, I’m away from topic…

Moral of the story: Don’t be a hypocrite. 

Haha. Movie rating: 6/10. 

How To Be Single

I’ve always have a list of movies in my collection but never had the time to watch it. So, I was determined to complete it accordingly. 

Funny thing was, I thought some of the movies, I might not like it at all or it might be boring. But then, some of the movies might come as a surprise. 

How To Be Single. 

Surprisingly, I can relate to the character Alice (played by Dakota Johnson). 

There was a time in my relationship, well earlier on, I felt what Alice felt. Being a person who have never been in a real relationship, (well, I was in a few relationships but never serious) so at one time, I felt lost as if I don’t know who I am anymore. 

There was a time when we drifted apart because, I do admit that it was because of my part, wanting to discover who I really am and do what I really want to do. 

There was a time that it got so bad, we actually took a time off, away from each other. 

But then, like the movie; when you take the time to rediscover and love yourself, you actually feel better about yourself and others will naturally be easy for you. I believe that. It was hard for me at first, never feeling like I truly deserve to have all the good things but once I got to know myself and found out what my passions are, loving and understanding others was a natural thing for me. 

It is never easy to get to that stage but eventually, you’ll get there. 

Always remember; learn about yourself, love yourself, discover your worth and others will fall in line. 

Anywho, the movie was not bad. A 5/10 I’ll give it🙂

Hello, My Name Is Doris

Wow! It has been a really looooong time since I’ve blogged. My last post was on 2014, written about how in 2 years time I’ll be married. And here I am, 2 years later, still no proposal. *Awkward* Haha.

WELL, it’s towards the end of 2016, things had been a tad stressful for me; making me having a headache almost every single day. 

Yesterday, I  destressed by watching “Hello, My Name Is Doris”. Funny thing was that the character Doris reminded me of one of my family members. *Not going into that… nuh-uh!*

The movie is about Doris, a 60-something woman who just recently lost her mum. As she spent all her life took care of her mum, so she was quite lost after her mum’s passing. She then had feelings for her younger co-worker. Things got awkward at times where it just makes you cringe watching that certain scenes and there were also times when you feel really bad for Doris and hoping that John, her younger co-worker would actually like her back. 

The interesting part was the ending where she day-dreamnt that John called out to her as she was waiting for the elevator and he rushed over, telling her why not they give it a try and kiss her. Well, that part we can predict it was her usual day-dream about John but what happens right before the screen fade to black was that Doris walked into the elevator and before the door was about to close, John actually called out to her. 

So…

It made viewers wonder, did John really do like what Doris daydreamnt about or …? 

Well, that’s for the viewers to decide. 

Overall, the movie was good, Sally Field was awesome and storyline was good. 

I would give it a 6/10 .  

Unstoppable

The year 2014.

I know it is the 16th day since the new year and the title of the post might be a little cliché but that’s the title of the book that I am currently reading.

So, what does ‘Unstoppable’ has to do with anything?

I began to think that despite the efforts to slow time down for certain purposes and reasons, no time in the world can be stop for your own selfish reasons.

In the 16 days alone, I had already experienced anger, love, sadness, hurt and happiness. So I have no idea what the remaining 349 days will bring me. However, I am ready to accept and challenge it face on with a slight procrastination perhaps on the side…

(Intermission of the boyfriend calling about what size my chamomile tea he’s buying from Starbucks.)

Since the first day, I’m pretty content with what was happening in my life. Some things still bothered me though but most of the time, I’m fine because I still have my boyfriend around.

Sadly, he will be leaving back to his workplace the day after tomorrow. (Insert a seriously ugly sad face.)

I’m happy that his holiday this time is longer than the usual 14 days that he usually took meaning I get to be with him for extra time. I do agree that at times, I do get selfish and wish to have him all for myself but of course, that would be impossible.

I feel double the happiness as this year, we came to conclusion that we will take the big step in the next 2 years time period.

Why two years time?

I am down with 3 more semesters to go, by then I will finish my studies. Yes, I am aware that I am still studying for my degree cert (and I’m trying very hard to attain it!) at the age of 26. If you want to know the reason, come and ask me personally and I’ll give you the full detail with dramatic gestures included. Haha!

Despite the time frame of 2 years time, that is 23 months including this month, I am already excited and getting ahead of myself, especially on Pinterest. Boy! I pinned lots of things on that app!

Yeah, I know I shouldn’t get too excited and make myself appear to be an idiot in everyone’s eyes but I just can’t help it. I guess that urge to take that next step in life is bubbling inside of me. (Laughing like crazy.)

I guess I feel the rush because ever since last year, I’ve been seeing wedding pictures, attending wedding receptions and scrolling through kids’ first day of school pictures on Facebook. Yes, some of the classmates/ schoolmates, their kids are already attending school. That would make their kid, like what, at least 4 years of age.

Gasp!

I don’t feel as if I’m marrying at a late age but somehow the peer-pressure of seeing your peers already in their working world, starting their life as a husband or wife, some mother or father, it just brings out the “what-the-heck-have-you-been-doing-all-these-time?!!” kind of thinking.

I try to suppress it. At times I succeed and managed to sweep it back to the dark corner in my mind but most time, it just bothers me and honestly, it can give a negative effect on my thinking and opinion on myself in life. And it kills me sometimes.

It is true! You are your own worst enemy!! (SMACK SELF!)

But I am thankful for my mum who is constantly reassuring me that I am not weird because I am not married yet. Haha! You may think it is in a bad way but it is not. I guess, it is the normal reaction from a parent who marry at a very early age.

My mum got married at the age of 23 and my dad was only 18. I even made a promise to myself that I would not marry at those age.

At 18, I passed it without getting hitch but I was in two weird relationships that year. My boyfriend was not one of those, he was the one after those two.

At 23, I am already in a long term and long-distance relationship with my boyfriend. It should be my 4th year with the boyfriend, the non-honeymoon-it’s-a-flocking-reality time of the relationship.

This year will be the 7th year on our amour. Hopefully there won’t be any 7th year itch. (Touch wood. Paranoid.)

It will be a struggle to save up money for the future as both of us has lots of family members. I think the amount of members can make me fall into an anxiety attack. However, it would be a good practise for my PR skills on event management and bla bla bla. (Nerd alert!)

Please tell me am I crazy and should I stop myself from being in this state of excitement and happiness?

Our first 2014 picture together.
Our first 2014 picture together.

All of Me

By: John Legend

[Verse]
What would I do without your smart mouth
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
Got my head spinning, no kidding, I cant pin you down
What’s going on in that beautiful mind
I’m on your magical mystery ride
And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright

[Bridge]
My head’s underwater
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

[Chorus]
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

[Verse]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I’m around through every mood
You’re my downfall, you’re my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing, in my head for you

[Bridge]
My head’s underwater
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

[Chorus]
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, all of you!

Cards on the table, we’re both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it’s hard

[Chorus]
Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all, all of you, oh

Cheating

By: John Newman (@JohnNewmanMusic)

 

I saw you Sunday, Monday
Hanging with your man again
You came back on a Tuesday
With that cold-heart look of shameOh I could love you better
Better than you once knew
And if you’re cheating, cheat on, yeah
’cause cheating’s just a thing you do
It’s just a thing you doI saw you Friday, Saturday
Tearing up another heart
You came home a’ crying
Why’d you take it all so hard?

You know I love you better
Better than you once knew
And if you’re cheating, cheat on, yeah
But I would never cheat on you

Yeah, I could love you better
Better than you once knew
And if you’re cheating, cheat on, yeah
‘Cause cheating’s just the thing you do
It’s just a thing you do, yeah

Ohhh
I’ve been told you baby
Girl you done some things so bad to me
And I know

[X2]
You are the one who’s creeping,
You are the one who’s cheating,
But if you’re heart is beating,
Bring it on, bring it to me.

[X2]
You are the one who’s creeping
You are the one who’s cheating
But if you’re heart is beating
Bring it on, bring it to me.

I could love you better
Better than you once knew
And if you’re cheating, cheat on, yeah
But I would never cheat on you, no.

I could love you better
Better than you once knew
And if you’re cheating, cheat on, yeah
‘Cause cheating’s just a thing you do, oh no no no

 


Music Playlist

So, this is what I’m going to do. I’m going to close my eyes and pick a song that is in my mobile phone because I realized that with much songs in my phone, I never get to listen from the first song through the last. I think it will take about 5 hours worth, probably. So that’s how I will choose the first song. The second song and third and so on will be put on random uptill the tenth song. Here goes!

알리 (ALi) – 365일 (Days)

This is one of my favourite song of ALi because of her powerful voice. Her voice always give me goosebumps and it always manages to capture my softside.

Kelly Clarkson – Dark Side

Who wouldn’t love Kelly Clarkson, the very first American Idol!

Rascal Flatts – Words I Couldn’t Say

One of my favourite country band, Rascal Flatts. It’s a shame that outside of America, they are not really that well-known because I truly love Gary LeVox’s voice. Besides that, they mostly sing inspirational songs, songs that picks you up when you are down. With his voice, you can feel the song deep in your heart.

Juanes – La Paga

Ahh, Juanes. The first song I heard from him was La Camisa Negra. He has that catchy vibe in this songs, the kind of vibe where you want to dance like Shakira hahaha!

Casting Crowns – Wedding Day

Casting Crowns is a Christian band with many inspiring songs. Wedding Day is one of my favourite, meaning a guy marries his girl despite the past because he loves her so much that he looks past her past.  It’s a very meaningful song indeed.

James Vincent McMorrow – Higher Love

I’m not sure whether most of you would like this kind of song, but yeah, I’m a fan of this Irish singer. His songs are in the folk-indie genre. Most of my songs in the phone, sorry to say, are indie songs.

The Swon Brothers – I Won’t Back Down

They don’t have the video for this particular song. If you watched The Voice, you would know that The Swon Brothers were from last season, Team Blake! Perhaps this song instead, Wagon Wheel by the brothers. I think they sing it better than the original singer actually. So, it’s Wagon Wheel instead to give you a hear of their amazing voices.

Birdy – Without A Word

Another Indie singer from Britain. If you see the video on YouTube, you would realize that most people commented R.I.P. Bonnie. That’s because this song was featured on The Vampire Diaries when one of the character, Bonnie died. I think. Sorry, I left TVD a long time ago. Sorry, Ian Somerhalder.😛

Darius Rucker – Wagon Wheel

The original singer of Wagon Wheel.

And lastly, MFBTY – The Cure

Tasha and Tiger! My favourite Korean Hip-Hop couple in the world. How can you not fall in love with Tasha’s voice? And also not to forget Bizzy. And I truly love Jordan’s laugh at the end of the song, signifying the cure for the couple. Jordan is Tasha and Tiger’s son.

And so, that’s it! The 10 random songs from my playlist. So, what’s yours?

Counting Stars

By: OneRepublic

Lately, I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I’ve been, I’ve been praying hard,
Said, no more counting dollars
We’ll be counting stars, yeah we’ll be counting stars

I see this life like a swinging vine
Swing my heart across the line
And my face is flashing signs
Seek it out and you shall find
Old, but I’m not that old
Young, but I’m not that bold
I don’t think the world is sold
I’m just doing what we’re told
I feel something so right
Doing the wrong thing
I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing
I could lie, coudn’t I, could lie
Everything that kills me makes me feel alive

Lately, I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I’ve been, I’ve been praying hard,
Said, no more counting dollars
We’ll be counting stars

Lately, I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I’ve been, I’ve been praying hard,
Said, no more counting dollars
We’ll be, we’ll be counting stars

I feel the love and I feel it burn
Down this river, every turn
Hope is a four-letter word
Make that money, watch it burn
Old, but I’m not that old
Young, but I’m not that bold
I don’t think the world is sold
I’m just doing what we’re told
I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing
I could lie, could lie, could lie
Everything that drowns me makes me wanna fly

Lately, I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I’ve been, I’ve been praying hard,
Said, no more counting dollars
We’ll be counting stars

Lately, I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I’ve been, I’ve been praying hard,
Said, no more counting dollars
We’ll be, we’ll be counting stars

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons are learnt

Everything that kills me makes feel alive

Lately, I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I’ve been, I’ve been praying hard,
Said, no more counting dollars
We’ll be counting stars

Lately, I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I’ve been, I’ve been praying hard,
Said, no more counting dollars
We’ll be, we’ll be, counting stars

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons are learnt

Take that money
Watch it burn
Sink in the river
The lessons are learnt

Make Peace With Your Past

Hello people!

I know I have not been posting anything for a very long, long time. I was actually caught up with lots of things in my studies and at home.Most of the time I just meditate in my room to suck in total silence and mind relaxation.

Decided to catch up with my blogging and found a draft with this title on the right hand side of the screen. “Make Peace With Your Past.” I don’t quite remember what was I going to write about, honestly.

I admit, in the past, I have done many wrongdoings and hurt lot of people with my temper and short-comings (still do sometimes) but eventually as I get older, I began to realize that it’s just a waste of time and energy to do so. In the end, I became more rational in my actions and speaking.

Speaking of making peace, I made peace with a friend yesterday. I think we have not been speaking to each other for about 2-3 years due to a misunderstanding that took place in the past. Over the years, it was one of the things that kept on bugging me at the back of my mind. Had been trying to contact her but I couldn’t. So finally, yesterday I managed to contact her and apologized for all the wrongdoings and bad sayings towards her. I guess because of the length of time that had past between us, tears naturally felled and for the first time in a long time, I was relieved. I finally got to let go of that matter from my conscience and mind.

I am grateful that she accepted my apology as well as apologizing to myself as well. It was probably emotional on my behalf, not sure about hers but I’m happy that I got a friend back into my life. I’m happy to know that’s she’s engaged now, will have a wedding next year. And what a small world, her fiancée is actually related to me from my mother’s side. Apparently he’s my third cousin!

It might seems hard to actually open your mouth and say you’re sorry but the outcome is worth it. Some people may not accept your apology but still, if you are sincere enough despite the negative feedback, at least you would feel good in easing your conscience. Resulting in a peaceful mindset in life.

So, if you have to make peace with anyone; be it your family, friends or anyone, gather up your courage, smile with sincerity and say, “I really am sorry for my wrong doings towards you. I hope you can open your heart to accept my apology.” Hopefully, things will work well with you.

 

Much love,

Lyssa

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